The Gift, Cecelia Ahern

One thing of great importance can affect a small number of people. Equally so, a thing of little importance can affect an entire string of people. Occurences can join us all together. You see, we're all made up of the same stuff. When something happens, it triggers something inside us that connects us to a situation, connects us to people, lighting us up and linking us like little lights on christmast tree, twisted and turned but still connected on a wire. Some go out, others flicker, others burn strong and bright, yet we're all on the same line.

A lesson finds the common denominator and link us all together like a chain. At the end of that chain dangles a clock, and on the face of the clock the passing of time is registered. We hear it, the hushed tick-tock sound that breaks any silence, and we see it, but oftenwe don't feel it. Each second mkes its mark on every single person's life; comes and then goes, quietly disappearing without fanfare, evaporating into air like steam from a piping hot pudding. Enough time leaves us warm; when our time is gone, it too leaves us cold.

Time is so precious. It is time that we do not have enough of;it was time that causes the war within our hearts, and so we must spend it wisely.

Time cant be given.But it can be shared.

"Goodbye 2009"

Its almost 31 days left before we say goodbye 2009 and haloo 2010. 2009 had been filled by a lot of ingredients. There's a story about happiness and sadness, about love and broken heart, success and failure and even laugh and tears. 2009 I must say the most hardest year in my life. I wont forget every single things that happened because it make me stronger. I thank Allah for the strength and for the bless.

Some people wont be happy with your achievement and they will even let you down and make you feel extremely worst. They will smile when u fall down and laugh when you get hurt. I dont care about them and I will never will. But I would say many thanks them!

Guys, lets end the year with great things. Its Y.E.S = Year End Sale so lets shop till you drop ! hihi. i love you :) BTW, the ujian khas went well.Do pray for me okay? :D and I bought The Gift by Cecelia Aherns jugak.**Excited**Tata for now

Weekend

I was alone for the last 4 days since mak and ayah went to Penang to take Izzati from her boarding school last Thursday. And because it was Thursday, again I missed the family-vacation. Last weekend, I was busy doing some research and did some revision for my next Interview. It was really tiring.ha ha ha. (obviously dah lama xstudy).

It was 6pm when a mettalic cream Innova stopped in front of the gate. It was mak, ayah n izzati.They're back.I smiled.Suddenly Izzati came to me with a brown envelope in her hand and she passed it to me. "Tak cek mailbox ke", she asked. I just nodded my head. I stared at the brown envelope and as immediately I opened the sealed envelope and

Berhubung dengan permohonan puan sebagai Pegawai Khas Tadbir N41 di Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, sukacita saya menjemput puan menghadiri Ujian Khas yang akan diadakan....

I smiled happily. Alhamdulillah.

photos mak n ayah mse vacation

Interview tips

I may not be the right one to give a speech on how to get hired or to write an article on interview tips. But I might have experiences that others don’t have. I shall not say that I am a good example to follow but somehow you can take out the good points and try it out! :D

I had gone through many interview. If you are a fresh grad and have lack of experiences, most of the interviewer will asked basic question to test your communication skills, your ability to elaborate any topic and to see your confident level. Well, I can summarize it into 3 points:

1. Introduce yourself - Explain about your education and your working experience (your internship is one of it). Elaborate the task that you have done. Don’t go babbling about your father's job or your mother's hometown or whatever it is because my uncle ( who is a senior manager in a private sector) said that the whole interview session is to market yourself and do not waste it.
2. Strength and weakness - Fresh grads usually made mistake at this part. The objective is to see how you well you know about yourself and the ability to see and elaborate yourself. Give examples and don’t simply say, "I am a team player, I am a fast learner, I am willing to try". Give supporting details for every thing that you said. What is the prove that you are a team player? Relate it with your past experience, for example your experience in managing a programme.Anddd, to explain about your weakness is not to make a fool of yourself in front of the interviewer. Make sure you back up your weakness to a positive impact. Eg: "My weakness is that I am too focusing on my job and it creates tense to the team but the good thing is, I make sure that the job is done".
3. Knowledge - What I mean here is, you may be tested on your knowledge about the position that you apply. You need to study, research and do revision about the job scope and the requirement that they need.

No matter how the question sounds like, the answer will be just the same. The tip is give examples on your previous experience. Relate the points with the facts. Smile and give a good eye contact. It works on me.

Its okay if you failed during the interview because you gonna learn the tricks and tackle the situation soon. I failed my Shell's interview by the way :) .

All the best ! :D

IM PRACTISING MY ENGLISH NI.KALAU SALAH TEGUR KAN :) THANK YOU (:

Where Rainbows End

We never know how our future will be

Just follow your heart and desire

Its not a matter of how long you gonna get it but how much effort you had put in

Be calm with everything that falls on you

Because soon you'll understand that everything happened for a reason

And Allah knows it better ~

Blog?

The fact that there are some people who hates this blogging thingy and they think that telling people about what you did, how did you felt, posting pictures or whatever it is is such a waste of time make me think twice.Do they understand this whole world of blogging?Well its optional and no one force you to be a blog reader.Ever heard of journal or diary? Too bad if you never had one.Cut it off!

If you could see me now

When you drop a glass or plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound.
When a window shatters, a table leg breaks,or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise.
BUT
as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent.
You would think as it 's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world.
But it's silent and you almost wish there was no noise to distract you from the pain

Therapy

It's therapy fellas :)

Dun mind sitting all alone in the dark room as long as i have this :)

beli di Penang, my 1st sight love :)

If you could see me now?

What if love was right there in front of you-you just couldn't see it?

-Cecilia Aherns-

I heart her <3

A place called here

Sometimes people can go missing right before our every eyes. Sometimes people discover you, even though they’ve been looking at you the entire time. Sometimes, we lose sight of ourselves when we’re not paying enough attention.

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger, the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it’s easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.

Rise and smile!~You're gonna shine dear!!~~

i pena dengar that bila 1 door close, banyak lagi yang akan terbuka luas.
True! and I am happy sangat with so many choices and chances terbuka di depan mata.
Thank you Allah!~Alhamdulillah.
Terima kasih tak terhingga to those yang respon kepada belog i ini.A
da tu baca2 belog trus msg i. just to make sure that i am okay..thanks tau!~ ( u noe who u are! :) )

Sya hearts awak semua :)

hugs**hugs** u olls

Play Pause and Stop

Saat-saat self esteem ini low, berjumpa Allah s.w.t memanglah perkara terpintar yang harus dibuat. Selain itu, melayan-layan lagu2 bersemangat macam listen from Beyonce or maybe The Climb from miley memang sangat seronok.Naik semangat 2, 3 level :)..Bercakap pasal level teringat pesanan seorang senior UPSM yang paling direspect,Abg Hadi.Klau bersabar, naik 1 level katanya.Thanks thanks thanks Abg Hadi :)..

Im not sure siapa read this blog.Others than 126 followers, I yakin ada sesetengah silent readers yang I rasa tugasnya mengintip setiap perjalanan kisah hidup I.Thanks dearest stalkers.Kalian buat hidup saya lebih sempurna.Tafsirlah sesuka hati yang kalian mahu.Sebarkanlah sebanyak mana berita yang kalian inginkan.Dan ingat juga Allah menilai akan setiap tindak tanduk kalian.Eh benar,I juga tidak sempurna dan hina di sisiNya, namun sebaik-baik penilai adalah Allah s.w.t..Apa yang terjadi, biarlah salah di mata-mata manusia (kerana manusia hanya tahu menilai dan mengkritik) yang penting benar dan tulus ikhlasnya hanya Allah yang tahu.

Readers yang I sayang,

Kadang-kadang kita leka dengan hidup yang surface nya Ya Allah indah tak terkata.Kadang-kadang anda jatuh ke lurah yang paling dalam sehingga bilamana anda menjerit sekuat hati sekalipun tiada siapa yang mendengar.Dua situasi ini, di kala susah mahupun senang sentiasa ingat bahawa kehidupan yang dipinjamkan ini milik siapa?Yes, milik Allah.Apalagi yang harus anda lakukan andai Allah sja tempat terbaik untuk kita rujuk.TAPI, readers sekalian apa yang paling saya gusar adalah bila Allah menguji kalian dengan pertolongan tanpa putus.Sehingga anda berasa selesa teramat sangat dan merasakan Allah meredhai setiap perbuatan kalian, I bimbang kalau-kalau itu hanya ujian dari Allah tapi u tidak sedar akan ujian itu.Maka sahabat, jangan mudah berasa selesa dengan apa jua keadaan yang anda hadapi.Beringatlah setiap masa.

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Ketika ini I sangat bersyukur akan sokongan tanpa henti emak dan ayah.Yang salah ditegur, diperbetulkan dan nasihat tanpa henti diberikan.Setiap ibu bapa punya cara tersendiri dalam memberi didikan terbaik kepada anak-anak.Jangan pernah menyatakan bahawa didikan si polan si polan tidak bagus tidak baik kerana kita juga belum tentu tahu sejauh mana betulnya cara didikan kita kepada anak-anak satu hari nanti.

Naw, Nini, I rindu amat pada you both.Be strong dlm hidup kita yang punya cabaran tersendiri.
Shu, my sayangness, lekas-lekas baik demam campak k:)
To those yang the names i x mention jgn berkecil hati.Ingatan I pada kalian semua tidak pernah berbelah bagi.And to you too my sweet readers, Extra love dari I untuk anda semua.Take care :)

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Semalam kan,

Tiba-tiba terasa macam eh! kat Malaysia ke ni? 2, 3 pasaraya besar2 I masuk satu pun takda kentang goreng bertanda halal Jakim.Eh ada.ada..tanda halal tulisan jawi dalam bulatan putih.Tengok nama kilang sekejap kat belakang.Kilang Malaysia.hmm..kempunan I semalam nak makan kentang goreng.Takda satu pun yang dijamin halal.haish~~

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Berhati-hatilah

Satu perkara yang tidak saya pasti, apakah teguran itu sebenar-benarnya dari hati atau ditokok tambah dorongan nafsu amarah?Adakala ia mengganggu benak fikiran saya walaupun sedaya upaya saya cuba lari dari memikirkan tentangnya.

Teguran/pertuduhan atau apa jua layak dipanggil, teramat tajam dan adakala tidak masuk dek logika akal.Kata org kenapa perlu gelabah kalau bukan kamu yg salah.Bukan saya gelabah.Tapi persoalan-persoalan ini mengganggu kitaran minda saya. Saya baru sahaja melangkah mengenal dunia sebenar alam dewasa, namun awal-awal lagi saya menemui kegagalan.Tak mengapa, saya tidak pernah takut akan kegagalan kerana saya percaya semakin banyak kegagalan yang saya tempuhi, semakin cerah kejayaan yang bakal saya terima.

Setiap tindak tanduk saya diputar belit dan ditafsir mengikut sedap rasa si pemerhati.Penilaian yang tidak adil barangkali.Saya akui akan kebenaran sesetengah perkara yang cuba ditegur si empunya badan namun saya sangkal sama skali akan pertuduhan tentang kisah peribadi saya. Teramat mudah mereka menilai tara keperibadian saya.

Be strong sya dearie,
Mulut orang kita xboleh tutup. Satu hari nanti semua pasti akan terbongkar. Ingatlah semua, sesungguhnya ujian daripada Allah itu kadangkala datangnya dalam bentuk kesusahan atau pertolongan.Jika bantuan itu datang dalam bentuk kesusahan, beruntunglah kamu kerana Allah menghitung akan setiap kesukaran, air mata dan penat lelah mu itu dan kamu akan sentiasa beringat dan menjauhi laranganNya.Namun andai ujian itu datang dalam bentuk pertolongan, berjaga-jagalah kamu.Kamu bisa hanyut dan lalai dengan setiap perkara yang kamu lakukan. kerana dalam kesenangan yang kamu hadapi itu kamu sangkakan setiap perlakuan kamu itu benar dan mendapat keredaanNya.Berpesan-pesanlah kamu kepada kebaikan.Semoga Allah bersama-sama aku dan kamu agar tetap berada di atas landasan yang benar.
Wallahualam.

l.i.f.e

Kadang-kadang org marah atas satu sebab lain tapi habis segala yang lain diungkit.
Kadang-kadang ada org tidak berpuas hati dgn kita tapi tidak memberi teguran sebaliknya disimpan dan dipendam.Apabila meletus, kalah gunung berapi.Lebur semua.

Orang sekeliling kita adalah cermin terbaik untuk kita.OK TRUE!Its not tidak mahu menerima the things that they said but it just dont make sense at all.Tapi i percaya that emak, ayah, sisters, bestfriends, adik-beradik upsm, diorang lebih tahu siapa i sebenarnya.Bila satu demi satu pertuduhan disuarakan i cuma panjatkan ke hadrat Allah yg maha berkuasa.Satu hari nanti mereka akan sedar betapa salahnya tindakan mereka itu.Allah akan bersama-sama dengan orang yang sabar.

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Ya Allah,
Aku bersyukur akan kesempurnaan yang Kau kurniakan kepadaku.sidikit pun aku tidak pernah mengeluh walaupun hakikatnya aku penghidap penyakit yang tiada ubatnya. Dengan kehendakmu, aku menjadi perhatian sebilangan kaum itu. Namun, aku melihatnya dari sisi ujian. Berat benar apa yang kau turunkan ini wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Kuasa. Andai rupa menjadi penghalang aku dengan Mu oh Tuhan, tutupkanlah pandangan mata mereka dari melihatku.Bukan kerna aku tak bersyukur ya Allah.Namun rupa ini menjadi fitnah dan sesungguhnya amat berat pertuduhan yang diterima. Cukuplah sekali dikatakan perempuan murahan, cukuplah sekali dikatakan tidak bermaruah, cukuplah sekali difitnah sebegini ya Allah. Jauhkanlah aku dari orang yang cintanya bukan untukMu, hidupnya bukan untukMu.

Wahai tuhan yang maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang,

Kau ampunklah dosa-dosa mereka yang menyebarkan fitnah itu. Kau berikanlah petunjuk kepada mereka-meraka yang menyampaikan tentang sesuatu yg mereka sendiri tidak pasti ya Allah.

Wahai tuhan yang maha mengasihani,

Kasihanilah hambaMu ini. Lindungilah aku dari pandangan-pandangan keburukan. Tutupkanlah pandangan mata lelaki dari melihat aku andai itu mencalarkan hubungan aku dengan Mu. Tutupkanlah ya Allah sehingga tiba waktu yang sepatutnya.

Engkaulah tuhan sekelian alam.Pentadbir seluruh alam.Engkau yang berhak menentukan segalanya di bumi dan dilangit.Terima kasih atas peringatan besar yang Engkau berikan.Aku bersyukur.Biarlah aku hina dipandangan mata manusia namun sedikit pun tidak aku sanggup dipandang hina olehMu wahai Tuhan yang maha adil.Amin.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S and friendship

"We've gone our own ways and I know its for the best,

but sometimes I wonder will I ever have a friend like you again?"

-Blink 182-

Friends are everywhere!~ i tahu but true true friends is hard to find.

True friends wont be there all the time but,

true friends wont step away and a they wont leave you all alone.

true friends will always trust you

even if,

the rest had said bad things about you.

Dont expect them to listen to you all the time,

because some times you need to listen to them.

If they havent text you or even call you,

never think that they had forget you.

Because true friends will always be with you even tho you're far apart.

i have lotsssaaa true friends.we hardly call or even text each other

apalagi meeting each other.But deep inside i know that

they're my forever true friends and my forever best friends!

Friends,

you know who you are kan?

Just remember that for every second that passed by,

I miss you, miss you and miss you so much~~ :)